Stressed, tired and things are going against me.

well recently so many things had affect me, like my sleep, my personal walk with God, my own breakthoughs, my relationship with my family, I feeling so fatiuge nowadays. Seriously, i feel like i want to slap or punch that person if they come and irritate me.

Well i admit that i am very restless and at times i am thinking should i just let all my feelings out? or just keep it inside my heart? I know there is always a reason for this to happen, but I really pray that God will really walk together with me closer to pull me through this Semester, becasue I've got so many things to do like projects, studies, shepherding and like CG stuff.

I also want to admit that at times, i really want to give up sherperding all my sheeps. Because i want to do my own things as well. Not only that sometimes, i would blame myself or argue inside my heart that if i have made the correct decision. I at times i really want to be a normal christian who serves only at a member level not a like a high leadership position like CL, UL or SDL.

But what should I do, i really don't know. Sometimes the responses of my sheeps discourages me or hurt me. Should i just truely tell them straight at their face or should i just hide it and tell it all to GOd? At times i just feel like crying in the bath room or in my own personal room or even when i am sleeping all this worries, burning burdern and other things are creeping in to me.

I know God is placing challanges onto me, i really hope that through this time, i really can pull through and give thanks to God in the end of the journey.

What is Fellowship?

well what is really fellowship about? how do we really fellowship? why do we fellowship? Where and when do we fellowship? what is the time frame for fellowship? Do we apply fellowship in our lives? how do we apply it?

firstly we got to understand that, why do we have a CG in church?

Next you can also read up (hebrews 10:25)

well i really hope to see that more things will improve in my CG, people i dont want to meet just only for sherperdings, CG or any other meeting. I want to be in your life, just as how jesus meet his people, Jesus didnt really give them sherperding but instead he is teaching life and changing, transfroming his people's lifes, you can also see that Jesus and is people are very close close. Can my CG do that? Can? haiss

first day of school

actually today nothing much, just go for SW and thats all hahax then go visit my ex-ex-sheep hhahax didnt know he face so much trouble in his CG as well but its ok.

Well we should learn to grow ourselves as well

Lets go and touch people hearts, by this term i want to see Edwin chan and kelvin chan cross over the line.