Stressed, tired and things are going against me.

well recently so many things had affect me, like my sleep, my personal walk with God, my own breakthoughs, my relationship with my family, I feeling so fatiuge nowadays. Seriously, i feel like i want to slap or punch that person if they come and irritate me.

Well i admit that i am very restless and at times i am thinking should i just let all my feelings out? or just keep it inside my heart? I know there is always a reason for this to happen, but I really pray that God will really walk together with me closer to pull me through this Semester, becasue I've got so many things to do like projects, studies, shepherding and like CG stuff.

I also want to admit that at times, i really want to give up sherperding all my sheeps. Because i want to do my own things as well. Not only that sometimes, i would blame myself or argue inside my heart that if i have made the correct decision. I at times i really want to be a normal christian who serves only at a member level not a like a high leadership position like CL, UL or SDL.

But what should I do, i really don't know. Sometimes the responses of my sheeps discourages me or hurt me. Should i just truely tell them straight at their face or should i just hide it and tell it all to GOd? At times i just feel like crying in the bath room or in my own personal room or even when i am sleeping all this worries, burning burdern and other things are creeping in to me.

I know God is placing challanges onto me, i really hope that through this time, i really can pull through and give thanks to God in the end of the journey.