2 touching acts God and people

Well today was a tireding day for me and i still push to lead the worship that i was appointed to. i hope i did at least get some people ministered in my CG, and after CG we when to eat dinner. I really thank God that he used Kelvin to bless me with the bread left over from the holy. Although, its left over but i am very very touched by what he gave me. I really was touched, when we reached makansutra, all the CG members was eating their dinner and i was very tired then, job gave me his coffee and i didn't expected that he would give me. Well i can really say thank God for my sheeps for blessing me although we don't talk that much, but still you care for me. Thanks to all.

Not forgetting God, he really gave me strength to lead the worship and i cannot do without his strength and i really that God that he gave me his love, his kindness, his assureance and many other more. I just want to shout - I LOVE YOU, I NEED YOU, PLEASE GUIDE AND GUARD ME.

Inward or outward?

Am i too inward in my spirit and my passion for people?
Am i placing myself in high value that i want people to notice me?
Am i losing my passion for the lost souls out there, and only working towards numbers?
Am i always looking into myself and the result that i expected?
Am i expecting too much?

Too much things to ponder about hope that his will really grow me and not pull me down, i need someone to guide me and correct me if i am wrong. God talk to me in all this areas of my life. I want to grow. See a change in my life.

CLOSER RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.

Why should i serve God? PUSH factor?

well this question really hit my heart, many of you all out there will give standard answer like, becasuse i want to impact life, God really love me, he die for me, want to be leader, etc.

But the truth is that isn't god grace the push factor that you serve him? is not how much you do but is how much you really understand god grace works in this world. Really take some time to ponder about this question. Especially, those who are leaders and those who really want to impact life through God annointing.