End for now??

i guess from now on i will not blog so much about me already :0 how? hahax anyway to those people whom i really treasure alot, you all should know lah. Do your best in everything because is God's gift to you. Love to your best, take oppounity, be humble and always seek to learn new things, be excited for more tough challanges.

most importantly, let God accept God into your heart truely and live with him. Amen.

The end already. dont know will i still write this blog or not. :)

i just cannot stop thinking

sheeps, wonder are you sleeping peacefully or not. hopefully is, well actually i cannot sleep becasuse i keep thinking of you all.

The Bittergourd story

Well, recently i just bought some bittergourd to eat, i think i still do not like to eat bittergourd after 3 to 4 years after the last time i eat bittergourd. But i have a reason to eat bittergourd to actually to destress somehow, and also to remind myself not to give up as a sheperd for my people, no matter how much bitter i face from taking care from my sheep i will still continue to persever on and use my heart to love them.

Also i am lighten abit everytime i eat bittergourd. Maybe you should give it a try.

what i realise

Well really thank God Nel and kokleng took the effort to come to my house and talk to me. Really appericate them. I hope next time i am the one going to their house and other people's house. So that i can experience what they have gone through.

I realise that i should talk to much and say too much reguarding my sheep's growth. Becasue it is only God who is going to touch their heart and grow them not me saying saying and saying, just also want to make things clear and i am not condemning anyone, but i just want to say, if you want to Grow with God, you will have questions to ask and also face somethings in your life in other ways.

But till now, non of my sheep's actually called and talk to me about their problems that they face, so i ASSUME that they are AlRIGHT and doing spiritually fine, if they concern about their concern about their spiritual life and they face no problems then i am fine with it, but if is the other way round i don't see the point why they don't come and talk to me.

But anyway, if the more you all don't need my help please just tell me, DON'T just keep quiet and do nothing. Take the first step. Take ownership of your spiritual life.

Your quietness will just hurt my heart.

I really hope that you can see this

Sheeps, i wondering what you all are doing now? Well if you all are stressed up or you just need someone to talk to PLEASE PLEASE call and talk to me, and this is the last time i am going to say this already.

I still miss you sheeps.

I know you all have changed by God bit by bit day by day, i pray that you all will capture God's heart, God's burdern in your heart. So that you can understand God's purpose for you in your life.

From today, i am not going to say anything already, because i feel that i am so naggy, after saying so so so many times, i blog this not to condemn you all but i am begining to feel irritated by what i say. I should just keep quiet and not say anything anymore.

But still i still LOVE you, i still care for you in my heart, although i may feel hurt at times, but i shall keep quiet and let me suffer in my heart.

A short quote in my heart

My joy is being able to go though what you going through,
My smile is when you say things that actually hurt me,
My pain is when you alway refuse my gift to you.

My hurt is when you do not spent time with God,
My sour is when you say you do not know,
My sadness is when you actually do not understand God and still doing nothing about it

My tears for you is when actually you are in the mids of happiness and joy.
My tears for you is when i am at home, thinking about you.
My tears for you is when i see that you do not even know how much i gave up for you.

I really hope that my sheep can see how i really feel about them. But i know they dont even bother about other people becasue they are too busy doing their own things already. Still i Love them, i love.

This is the best that i can do

God i just pray that my sheep will really understand, how much i really love them. God if they have any stress or anything that they cannot take it i pray that you will let me experience it with them, cast any of the events which are happening to them towards me Lord, i am willing to experience with them and to go through it with them Lord. I have faith that in whatever situation you will be with me.

Even, right now as they are happily living in their lives, i pray that you will take away my priviliage to help me to understand their needs and the care that i have for them.

Be it family problem which they have, or and stress that they are have in their mind i pray that you will cast it on me, i pray that you will give take those away from them and put it in me so that i can suffer with them and understand how they feel.

God i know nothing will come back to me NOTHING no affirmation i will recieve nothing Lord but i want to do it for you. I pray you help me Go through Lord. I commit all this to you. AMEN.

father's day

well today me and my family are going out to celebrate father day at a orchard restruant well quite excited about it hopefully everything is going well and smooth. Also i have decided to tell my family that i have a blog and they can actually come at have a look.

Wow this is the first time i open up my life to my family.

Just want to wish my father have a healthy life, lesser anger and also be more understanding towards what i am doing in my life.

Prayer for my father - Lord i just pray for my father that he can continue to lead this family well and i thank you for giving him into this family that whatever things had already happen, he will always pull us together to slove problems and having wonderful time talking to one anther in our life. i pray for him for this healthy life and is anger to be lesser. Thank you lord and i commit my family onto you. AMEN.

Years down the road

hummm how many of you all actually think about the years down the road of your life and what you would actually face. Well for me i have already thought of it and currently acting upon it in my life right now.

I really pray that God will see my heart that i want to use my hands and mind to heal people physically and to use me to minister to people spiritually in their life. I want to give my life to edify other people's life.

Of cause not forgetting about my marriage in the future. Not troubled but, just abit concern. Currently i am seeking not totally waiting, because adam also ask for God for his Spouse eve.