So many things suddenly

This few days have been thinking so many things in my mind becasue now i am 18 coming 19 years old already, and my target of getting married is at prefered before 27. Also given myself 3 to 4 years to know my future spouse. Till now quite alot of suitable ones for me has appeared in my life already, it really make me think that my stardard is actually low or i am not really intrested in my life partner.

Also coming 19 already, still don't have a personal bank account, abit funny. Should i start telling my mother about it?

What about my new house? The place i am going to work in? Will i be able to study medicent in NUS or getting a Nursing Masters? When should i start to have a Girlfriend? Go which country to plant a church?

So so many things to wonder about, and seriously is becoming more and more near and realistic in my life right now what should I do? Should I just leave it as it is and wait until the things really set foot in my life then i start pondering about it, seriously in really hinders my growth in God.

Do it mean that i leave it all to God i can stop pondering about all this things which are yet to come? Sometimes i just feel like just end my life quickly to go and meet God faster, but i know i cannot i cannot. there is so much things for me to go and do.

Just want to cry le. haiss