Doubtfulness

Well as just now, as i talk to Zhi Qiang on msn, i asked him what he had learn during service. Then the told me, that he had learn something. Then i asked him so how do you apply the thing you have learn then he asked me to tell him how can he apply into his life. I was thinking, i am not you, how can i tell you.

The next moment, the said that he said that he finds both the application and learning point is illustrated what he had learn. Then i just want to remind him that. Learning is one thing and i means that you have this certain knowledge, but application is another thing which means you have wisdom to knowing when and how to apply the knowledge that you actually have learn.

In my mind i was like i accept that true there is application point in the learning point. Then i continued to ask him that the learn something else today. He told me that, he have to do something now so cannot share. I said, ( is up to you lah). I know it sounds angry to you, but you must know that its my way of expressing. Besides, since you said that, i will take not and change it for the better thanks.

But, i hope that you can also change, please take note also that i am trying to help you evalute yourself and your learnings during the teaching. Even though i am not your sheperd, but i still ask you becasue i want to help you grow in God, but instead you make me doubt myself.

You make me think that my message did not get across, you make me think that i cannot stand upright when i am a correcting you, you make me think that i am angry when you said that i am angry ( when i am actually not).

See you are making me doubting so much of myself. Just to remind you that i am not condemning you but you let you see how you have affected me so much.